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"Snatch"
"Grind"
"Vivid"
"Icebreaker"
"Shatterstar"
"Bliss"
"Spite 55"
"Line of Sight"
"Pull"
"Fiend Of Mine"
"Embrace"
"This Town"
"Submerge"
"Vitality"
"Watercolor Faces"
"Namesake"
"Slipping"
"Gave Up"
"Bittersweet"
"Broken"
"{Pseudo}Fuck You"
"Untitled"
"Wake"
---Exception Songs--
"Kevin"
"Aphrodesinsomnia"
"M357"
"Lady Blossom"
"Atom and Eve"
-----"Snatch" -----
You hold the hand and break the silence
Built up from the echoing in your ears
Pushed it down, withered smile
Mirror mirror on the wall only shows you your worst fears
Swallow it down
They give what they claim you need
Follow me down
Contageous, so cold in your means
Just close your eyes
You hold the hope so high
Torn down from the time that you let fall apart
Close your eyes and just fall away
Whatever below you is jsut another start
Open your mind
Spread wide to the way the candles light this place
Hush the flicker out, subsiding in the waves
Of the ocean in your eyes
I want to drown...
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"Grind"
- Break down the walls to the limitless
Unchained, the sky is now reachable for you
True we paced amongst ourselves, all thruout our lives
I can't deny that to the sky is where I'll fly tonite
Her words follow, repeated in her eyes
and the stars seem so much closer in our pulling skies
Blinding sheets of our fear, fading as we find
That shadows suffocate hopelessly if only we'd add the light...
self-hostaged minds...
These things we must grind
Her words, still aching all alone
but soothing regrets that happened to stay
To face what confronts a skylight wonder, rise...
Glance at the regret that could have been and push it all away
self-hostaged minds...
These things we must grind
Wonder in our eyes is what we find
...and maybe a lack of fear on the side
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"Vivid"
- Time will tell and tarnish and prove me wrong someday
Its all so clear, I still see your face so vividly
I can't subside...watching memories wash ashore
You're still inside...so deeply no matter how many time I push this all aside
When did all this start to feel so cold around me and why do i feel this way
When did the color in these eyes fade to black and white and slowly fade to grey
When did I hold you so close than other in my dreams as morning is not too far at bay
I havent heared your voice in so long, a silent cry and I realise, it's when you walked away
I've gone and shown myself a side of you I've never seen
A part of you that turned in the midst without goodbye
Held deep inside...still breathing but on my knees
Waiting for time...to take the clairity of our time that live inside my mind
When did you blind your eyes to the tears that begged you to stay
What can I do to possibly make this nightmare sway
Why cant a forever night fall with you still here without the dreams pushed away by the day
How can I just tell you I'm sorry...it's all I can really say
Waiting for time...to take the clairity of our time that live inside my mind
Waiting for time...to take the hurt away that comes with remembering
Praying for time....
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-----"Icebreaker" -----
Faded photographs
and memories fading faster
are all I have left of you
The 'u' is missing from the 'us'
Ive counted the smiles left in me that barely add up to few.
Chorus 1:
The tears I gave up in your name.
The hopes I wasted all the same.
The prayers sent skyward never awnsered, and left
to be in vain
Echoing in my ears..and drifting thru this wishfull mind.
Our words that once drifted together now drifted afar and lay tattered far behind.
My path ive set..
these fear I've met...
I realise, Im my own one big regret
Chorus 2:
Trying unsuccesful to get these thoughts to end...
Letters written and thrown away..torn opposed to sent. I try to ignore the taste of you thats been left with me..
What am I to do when, I reflect on your eyes again...cuz i know it's me you wont see..
The tears Ive let gravity claim ..regret flaring from our times in my mind Ive framed....
Its a shame what Ill never understand is...I cant bring myself to realise..youre not worth all this.
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Shatterstar
I suck you in
Swallow you down to a place that's more peaceful than here
Burning up inside
Burn me up inside
Holding you in, in a breath, makes breathing much more dear
I haven't heared a word you've said
It seems it all ends up to be in vain
It's not as it seems
What's this supposed to mean
One day I'll have everything to lose, instead of having nothing to gain
Pull the stars from the sky
And take the sun away
One more morning with harsh realities
Is another with light in the windowpane
I hold you up
Up to the sun that we'll steal tonight and watch you see-though
Watch you inside
True colors shine though
Satisfied with what i did not find, let's push this world aside
I haven't heared a word you've said
It seems it all ends up to be in vain
Only after we've lost everything
And everyone's gone away
Are we free....are we free to do anything
Shatter the stars from the sky with me tonight
Let's fly away
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"Bliss"
-Motion sickness cuz she's here
And on me once more
Conversations stricken from the words that decay
And here she stays
On me
Eyes fluttering with her rhythum, even it's not right
And yet she thinks she's so sure
Close my eyes and pretend
that she's her best friend
And that here she is, here she's been, on me
Kiss Kiss, Miss Bliss
Eyes closed and wandering
Kiss Kiss Miss Bliss
She's fallen to far, it's haunting
Only matter of time before reality knocks on my minds door
It's her, she's still here, and what for
Every day it's all the same
Someone new is my new aim
But if I speak or even breathe
I'm locked away with air a need
Until it's time I'm back here again
Running out of ways to say I love you
Sick of pretending that I'm enjoying this
When she's smoking when shes finished
I'll kiss and kill Miss Bliss
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Spite 55
In Spite....
Life isn't as complete
From all your desent
and from secrets, your dirty truths begin to secrete
Slowly your eyes take over
and wonder what has happened to you
You've gone too far this time
and the simple things won't carry you through
Crashing in what I have created
Crashing through with all my mistakes
I'd like to take and strip away, the dirty things I've done today
But it's just not that easy
Inside I'm freezing
So cold and these things won't go away
So far....
from the heavens we are
So discrete in our ways
so all this regret jsut stays, and we find ourselves so helpless to get away
I can't blame this on anyone
I've pushed to far and fell in and locked the door
You've fallen too far this time
and the simple things won't carry you anymore
Falling in what I have created
Chasing down all my mistakes
I'd like to take and strip away, the dirty things I've done today
But it's just not that easy
Inside I'm dying
Passed on and gone, these things won't go away
You hands can't help me
I couldn't even save myself
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Line of Sight
Sad eyes, inside
You choose not to show it all
But you let your tears slide down
Head down
Fading crown
concealing but swallowed from your anguish
why cant it all go away
With everything pulling inside
and the grey crawling the skies
Thinking you are all alone
Is the farthest from the truth that you will ever be
Muting combination
Suffocating all reason
and you can't bring back what's gone forever
seconds scampering, espcaing time in that tourturing treason
How much farther can we fall?
if you turn and see for yourself
I'll deny it all
With everything pulling inside
and the grey crawling the skies
Thinking you are all alone
Is the farthest from the truth that you will ever be
You're in my line of sight
Disconnected
you cant' bring back whats gone forever
but my advise you won't take
You're in my line of site
And everything will be alright
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"Pull"
Pull....
Simple mind in a simple rage...infectious and stained on a worhtless page
Yesterday is less than a breath away, but it's hidden under the tissues you've singed
Contageous and complacent, a drug induced mind behind a many sided face
It seems there will always be more names scratched out than ever scratched in
No progession, just infestation where daylight dies...nothing short of a regret in his maker's eye
The shimmer of pins in a sorry excuse
The front of defience as the cowardice hides
I smile cuz everythings clear in this world, severed from you
It will always be storming on the other side
Somethings different and yet better about today
An odd little freak has nothing to say
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Fiend Of Mine
I can't find the words
or the breath to help me find
a quicker way to the bottom, of the hole where you hide
There's not much left of, and
There's not much left to say to
My own personal Judas in disquise
You're not my favorite person
Your just my best fiend
You're not much of a sight
Nothing left to say, dizzied from your ways
(Dipicted ridicule and lies)
Displayed and dismayed
All your backstabbing tools hanging on a shelf
watching as you hit bottom, of the hole you've dug for yourself
There's not much more to tell, but
There's so much more to laugh about
as you coast thru your makeshirt personal hell
My best fiend keeps talking
But no ones listening anyways
I hope the thorns are sticking you hard inside
My best fiend
My Judas in disquise
Hey, we all know one =)
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"Embrace"
- To fall is to rise only backwards
To cry is to laugh in reverse
To sing is to shout from the rooftops
the heart of your soul in a verse
To wound is to heal in a process
To hurt is to help in the end
To die is to be born in a new life
To revieve is a smile yet to send
To love is to wake full of hapiness
To hate is to love in return
To make sense is to make no sense at all
As a lyric is stolen from the blind without a sound
Im in a world of contradictions
and standing with a smile on my face
To climb is to falter to the ground
and fight, to make up in the end
To kiss is to kill, with a smile I've fed so many that bitter pill
To live in this world of contradictions
Is just another reason to embrace it all
Original Score by Shayla Nicole Houser of Descended Angel
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This Town
I've found myself here again,
its almost time to walk away
again.
Cold and nervous I lower my head
and wish I wasnt here where the whispers are all I hear.
I feel your stares pressing in...the moments spent with you, sadly, only make you that much more near...
Chorus:
The eyes tend to follow, everywhere I go.
All of the ones behind those irses drown me within their pupil, that bottomless blackended hole.
This place called 'farmilliar; always calls me back again..Ill be back again,
and Ill swallow this town down whole.
Is there an escape, I asked myself this for too long. This question repeating as all hope seem to be secreting a too common truth and far too much alone. Tragically vital that I must tend to call this place 'home'..
I hate to feel all the while Im here.
Pretend Im somewhere else..
pretend Im someone else.
Anywhere but here
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"Submerge"
- I've managed to submerge
Waist deep
In the world I've created
In the web I've strung along behind me for so long
I've managed to raise the level
Far past my neck
Last breath upon me
In the bottomless river I've let flood in
You see, it's because of me
The tidal waves ruin and rule
In my life at least
It's the way...I've unfoutunatly created it
Eventually aided it
Now I'm regretting it.
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Vitality
- I need you now, I need you now somehow
- As your candlelight aura caresses your face
- Days whisp by in the sky that's found in your eyes
- With the sun that never rests, and where the stars are forever in their place
- I need you more than you'd ever know
- Apologetic for the silence....in the midst of speechless, this I've always known
- Raining like halos, that dive rather than fall like stars
- What I feel....I feel its only a start adored
- Existant from the real...vitality is hearing your voice once more
Can't help myself but feel
Can't deny the thoughts that you steal
Can't help it anymore as the angels call
Can't help but let myself fall
....into you.
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"Watercolor Faces"
- We can't hold the tears that wait there
As we remember and recall it all
Every second ticking faster and faster
And faster, as down into discolored we fall
The shades of texture we carried
That we're there before our first words
Non-existant is how they're existing today
And awaiting the haloed skylight unfurled.
You can't help the fears that keep looming
As we try to predict what will come about
Every thought trickling hope down into forever
Close you're eyes in forever prayer, cuz death is what life is all about
The lifeless color, we're jaded
That was here before we knew the sun carressed so well
Echoing though are the wish of theyre ages
As again we turn on others' farewells
All alone in the ocean I'm drowning
This technicolor dreams astray
Drowning in the watercolor expressions I carried
That your tears gripped and washed all away
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"Namesake"
(Fuxxer!!)
Look and see
Im who you want to be
With you near it's getting harder to breathe
you sit and talk of things not done
not thought of
not even concieved
(Fuxxer!)
You bleed amongst the floor
and claim that it's not yours
irrelivent
decendent
of your namesake, as your ideas stall
irrelivent
decendent
Lets see you try that now!!!!!!
You stole my name and our witts the same
(Fuxxer!)
Listen to these words
You think you know who you are
Then let me ask you just why your my shadow...
Called your name more now than after
Fathered few down the gossip laughter
I think it's time to shed the light
BRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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"Slipping"
- Simplistic fourtune haunting me
Distance further every day
Grasping for a reminence of then
In my hands, it tatteres and decays away
Holding thoughts in my head
Firmly as the clarity in the faces can't seem to stay
Time has scarred it's mark on me it seems
Pulling me farther and farther away
Can't hold on to yeasterday
Even if I wont wake up tomorrow
Kill the though with an addiction
Cuz the world you left me is in sorrow
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"Gave Up"
-Torn inside
Torn so deep, fallen from a place so steep
And with this past, I mourn
Nothing quite like watching everything fall away
And nothing like feeling yourself choke on yesterday
Nothing like holding the edge of life in frays
Tear it all up and tear it all down
And throw it all away
Sick towards all you are
Tired towards the place you've made
Sickening voice shedding tired lies
Twisting 'round pushing truth aside
You tore me...in so many ways
And in so many ways, I'm sick
Nothing much left to lose
Yet so much that's fading away
Scarred and staind, I watch it all
Just close you eyes...jsut close you're eys and jsut fall
Why do you think I don't like what I see?
Sight at stake, you're jsut false and fake
My one, my stun, my single fucking need
Just go away
Everything you touch
Everything you say, a rooted lie
Everything you wish inside
...just another star taken down from my sky.
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"Bittersweet"
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I'm suffocating, drowning in my ocean
Reminence of the farmiliar emotion
It burns the eyes to see, waiting in the fear of need behind the door
Familir smile breaking the surface...it opens the wounds just a little bit more
Acknowledge how it might be....
Bittersweet epitomy
Tired storms, swirling in this mind
A moment to sort it all out is the moment I seek to find
It slowly comes together, as the narrow as it seems
But first it chokes out the light that shows us what to breathe
Fearing if what I found is what I'll find
Systematic decline...
I'm suffocating, torn open inside
Waiting for the wake of the waves to subside
It holds me in embrace, promising the wind to change
A double edged entity comforts me as another morning fades with age
My closest friend you've come to be....
Your my Bittersweet epitomy
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"Broken Dream"
- Cold
Still and hollow
Never followed
Withered, blistered, and dried
Bought
Not sold
In every way
Everyday
Storms inside this head
Keep swirling
Forever rain keeping in stride....A calm day is a day that's few
Tearing out my insides while everyone walks by and doesn't have a clue
Center of the crowd
Deafness is all I hear all around
Swallow it down
It consumes me, it ruins me
Take a look at yourself
outside yourself
Place another broken dream
Hang it on your shelf
watch your eyes blacken
from everthing that you've seen
Your slowly becoming someone....
slowly becoming me
Only at the end....
Mind over matter
The crowd is charming
Even when they bring you to your knees
Fall Away from here
Far Away from here
Like a tainted tear
Inside
Bask in regret
Try to Forget
What has happend all before
I'm...
Idealistic
Bleeding out pessamistic
Push it away, push it down
Just let everything go
Wash
All around
Faces in the crowd
See them turn away
from all your cries
At least i can still dream
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"{Pseudo}Fuck You"
Nothing was ever there in the place that's evermore empty
Your blank smile hiding absence of reality
Days go by gripping reason, but you don't know
Ignorance is not shaking my head in apathy
Cuz I don't care where your smiles fell to
cuz your words ring hollow against never meaning what I said
Trite wishes assisted whatever existed but...
Whatever you found was just in your head
Pseudo-real is only half of the past
Theres more you never knew, how you never saw it is a question that hangs from above
Memories smoked out of the sky, non existant as you now are
overboard emotional
Can't help but notice the way
You name echoes the voice of delusional
So swallow your psychosis
Medicated mentality, my dear
In the dark, where you've been, you can dream on...
Dream on with blinded eyes...nothing was ever here
Pseudo-real is what the past was
Others you never knew, I recall their faces more clearly in my thoughts above
You wonder what you ever did to me, with eyes closed
Pseudo realising is something you're all to fond of
Fuck You.
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"Untitled"
-Still here, still haunted by your amazing glance
The lights caught in your gaze
Everything that I can say
are the words that mute me as they get in the way
I find that wish, as its tide doesnt reside...
to find slumber, that peacefull sleep
In one of the blinks of your eyes
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"Wake"
::::voiceover:::
"Thanks to TV, our leaders...the media for shaping our jaded and desensitized minds into outlet seeking creative beings, we're your products of society and we don't know whether to say 'thank you' or to say 'Fuck You!!!''
::: end voiceover::::
Sketch what you see around you
Do it on your own, do it all alone as the
tears fade the paper in it's youthfull set
We see what we want to around us
Blind our eyes, we clear our skies above
ourselves and pretend our hearts are not so dead
Hear the cries around you, and the faces silently cry out
But you keep walking, praying no one hears yours.
Pass them at your feet, the children whos vanity cries out in vain
Trivial you walk on by as another sun takes its course
Open up and see
Your eyes and watch
Wide and take in...
and wake up to what keeps you up no more
Silhouettes passing you by, all around
You watched them pray...on the streets that cry aloud
its where youve come to know as common to you
They dont hear your cries now...the street cradles you without a sound
Maybe someone will wake for you
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---Exception Songs--
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"Kevin"
And I want you here up in my face
Fade you out, weed you out, teeth on curb and in your place
Incomprehensible complications, still wanna be hardcore?
Force feed you everything youve given, and gut you and your psychosis
Come get your VIP ending, intentions up in lights to put you out
Run away and Ill pull the floor from underneath you, and i want you up in my face
It cant be that hard
Jsut give me one more reason
One more reason motherfucker and Ill make my mark
Comatose reality fracture...tell you when its over?
Youve been dead from the get-go, begging for that savior.
Savior in a metal casing, out of your misery.
Think your hardcore? I want you up in my face
Mirror mirror on your wall, say my name three times and down you fall
Wanna know how it feels, wanna know what its like
a makeshift lobotomy wrist deep, come and get it if youd like
Ill stick around Ill stick around
Fade away, Ill make sure you cant be found
Savior in a metal casing took you in its embrace
Ascended you with it, and splattered your face
Keep it up
Any of it
Youll wonder why your life went so fast before your eyes
You make me sick, disgrace
Disgrace
Savior finding its mark
Disgrace
Now...
Without a face
Caught in my wake
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"Aphrodesinsomnia"
Close my eyes and fade away
Late night libido...all alone and here I lay
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"M357"
Before I blink and never open again
Someone take these dreams away
Suspended in something inescapible
Accompany me, where not a single star remains to be seen
Slipping away, slipping into this dream
Into this slumber where I fall forever
Catch me before I pummel the ground below...
Where the only lethal ground is found when I open my eyes...
...to whats around me when I wake
Open my eyes to see
See what I chose not to see
Driven past all empathy
Past dignity...involved as it all falls around me
Open my eyes to see
What I chose not to see
What I don't want to...in this medicated dream
So delayed in my response
To everything I think I hear, I think I see and I think I understand
Portrayed in all, all in all, what's so expected
In each second more of the same, more unexpected
Time neglected in this vein injected dream
Please someone wake me
But not to what I think it'll be
...It's just more of the same
I'm waking up to you
And all this
And all I closed my eyes to
...I don't wanna be here
With you
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"Lady Blossom"
-TEMPORARILY LOST-
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"Atom and Eve"
We're the target audience and we hold the scale so she can reach
and we're the hommorhage born of the cuts we've made
She's our tumor and we give her a name, a home, a place to infect in fame
and her should is made of stainedglass shrapnel that shimmer darker than the sky can fade
Pretend she's so far away, when she paints the sky her maroon mosaic
Pretend she's resting safetly, contageous suffocation...reminence...she never leaves
We fill these empty spaces, and the chalk begins to trace us
Falling from the sky, she has one more way to make us believe
Atom's made his mark
On the Eve of these recent times
Burning down their garden
We're making Eden a new reality
We dreamed up an explination behind a face in the sky, and explained it in our name...behind the frames
We extinguish fire with fire, and poetic jsutice to cool the air
The god we created was a marianette as the falling bomb..it's brainchild, slid down the strings
And when the strings broke, the hands tethered above show no signs they cared
Swarming in like dragonflies
Charming us like Aurora eyes...falling such a height in the morning air
An idea was the burning star, as the waiting fuse became the stripes we wear.
Taken apart, men walk in frontlines that follow in each step
Like matches they fall and burn
We put more our out than we put in....
In it's anorexia ways, as her world turns.
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